Last time I was in a depressive state, I came home from work and lay down on the floor in my apartment living room. After a half hour of lying there, I decided to take some notes about how I felt. I’m hoping that sharing my notes can help those without depression understand some of what goes through the heads of people who are depressed or even suicidal. Maybe if more people knew what we were thinking in our darkest moments, they could help us in our fight.